I always see the new year as a new slate, a new begining and, a time to re-evaluate the past year. I suppose it is because I have a birthday right around the begining of the year. I know better that to make new resolutions, but still I can't help but want to do better next year.
I remember Mom making that a goal for several years while I was growing up. I also remember how foolish her children thought that goal was, only because perfect is so subjective. But subconsciously I must have bought into the process, after all she was my mother and in my mind she could do no wrong. So, perhaps this will be the year that I don't strive towards my own definition of perfection.
Still, I want to eat better and exercise more effectively. I also want to be less critically and more sensitive, to think before I speak, and of course, to be kind to those, who annoy me the most. I can't help it, I am what I am.
I kind of went shopping crazy this year, I know it was wrong, but still it has been so long since I spent so freely.
Which brings up my next point. I bought a bunch of CDs from Amazon (still not ready to download songs). One of the albums I got was Rodger Miller and one of the songs he sings is 'Me and Bobby McGee.' I love that line about 'freedom, just another word for nothing more to loose.' I also got a Merle Haggard album, and the line that I like best on that album is 'A one and only rebel child from a family meek and mild.' The name of the song is 'Mama Tried.'
I guess my point is the song writers are poets and even thought the words are simple they really speak to the soul.
So, I guess, I am not so sorry I spent so much money, because I really did feel something in my soul that I haven't felt in while (guess my soul can be bought). Food for the soul is not always free.
One of the new books I got was "Inside of a Dog.' So far it has been fairly interesting. Dogs see blue, but red looks yellow or green to them.